I don't like to cry. I hate it. It makes me feel weak and vulnerable and fragile.-Those are three words that people who "know" me, don't usually think of when they think of me. But I am all of those, and lived in a world of tears for years off and on, then for 3 years, almost constantly. I begged God to take away my tears, my low thoughts and hated that he had made me so "emotional". I begged some more and I felt like God had abandoned me to fend for myself. And all of this was while I was in a role of leadership within a women's ministry at my church.
So what changed? Did God finally come and take away my tears? No. he did not. God showed me that like the apostle Paul, He was going to use what I thought was a thorn in my side- He was going to use THAT to serve him. And no, I'm not comparing myself to Paul- but he used Paul to show me that everyone struggles with something-even Paul! and if we stop seeing our "thorns" as thorns, then God can use us in ways we could never imagine! Through a long and agonizing process, he taught me to use my tears to help others. He taught me that he had made me emotional for a reason. He had a purpose for me, if I was willing to be used by him for his purposes.
But he said to me, “My grace is enough for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” So then, I will boast most gladly about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may reside in me. Therefore I am content with weaknesses, with insults, with troubles, with persecutions and difficulties for the sake of Christ, for whenever I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Corinthians: 9-10
This website is the culmination of this process, not done yet, but an ongoing process,of using my tears to reach out and comfort others. As we head into the month of Thanksgiving, I will be sharing and discussing just that-Thankfulness.
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